You know that movie scenario where the girl throws everything in her closet onto her bed, looking for the perfect thing to wear? Well I never thought I’d say this, but that scenario is becoming more and more common in my house lately.
I consider myself somewhat clothing challenged, and so this particular activity surprises me a lot about myself.
The disability started some time in my eighth or ninth grade years of school, when I became afraid of clothes. I looked around and noticed that my friends who were the most confused and unmoored in life were the ones who spent all their attention on how they looked. They acted as if it could be known who they were by how they dressed, and didn’t focus on anything else.
I swore I’d never be that way. And in the typical black and white view of a teenager, that meant swearing off caring about clothes and looks almost entirely. It also meant that I missed learning how to care about makeup and which colors complement and contrast when I think a lot of girls learn to do that instinctively.
This did not last in extreme for very long, but it did slow me down for a while. Lately, no one’s more surprised than me to find in myself a blossoming interest in fashion and in how outfits go together. I consider this to be a bit of healing from God. I’ve come to believe He likes it when we explore our personalities, even something as surface level as what we like to wear.
As I learn about it, one of the most frequent thoughts is probably: I could never pull that off.
And don’t we all do that with clothing items? I’ll bet there’s something in your closet that you love and think is fabulous but you don’t wear because you’re too nervous. Honestly, a lot of what I don’t wear is because I’m not sure if it will match the image of myself I’m trying to build in people’s heads. And even though I’m no longer afraid to try to look cute when I get dressed in the morning, I still look at that skirt and wonder, “what will people think.”
If I don’t like the answer it goes back in the closet, to go unworn, a closet orphan that nags at my budgeting self with feelings of guilt. Don’t know how to wear it right. Can’t stand not to wear at all.
This is why I was excited when one of my new favorite blogs, Bramblewood Fashion, announced the 30×30 Remix for the coming month. Readers of the blog pick 30 items from their closet and wear only those items for the next 30 days. It gives you practice mixing and matching clothes in new ways and learning to emphasize pieces of clothing that you don’t normally wear.
I think it’s a great chance to practice being good stewards of what God has given me, as well as to celebrate who He made, by exploring my style and what kind of clothing I like.
In the days ahead we have exciting things coming to Unfading, not the least of which is we’re starting to write again! And I hope one of the things you’ll do during that time is journey with me as I learn a little more about fashion!
Here are my 30 items. I’m a day late, the challenge started yesterday, but there’s always grace, right? You’ll notice there are 31 items listed here. I’m stuck on which last one to get rid of. Do you have a vote? I’ll be deciding this evening, as well as posting today’s outfit.